I am a quarter of the way through the first round of edits on Fae Guardian. Last night I spent three hours combing through the manuscript fueled only by a cup of cinnamon hot chocolate and a scented candle so strong my hubby swore he could smell it downstairs. Black Pepper Bergamot from Bath & Body Works if you’re interested.
The last two days I hadn’t touched my manuscript because I was doing a paid editing job for another author. The editing pays more than the writing so far so it’s a gig I want to keep. It also helps that I am a massive fan of this author so it does not pain me at all to read her work. However I found that two days was enough to send my mind swirling into self-doubt about my manuscript.
Cue the song Clubbed to Death by Rob Dougan which I am pretty sure was on The Matrix soundtrack. Am I moving forwards or backwards? Neo doesn’t know whether to face the truth or continue living in a made up dream world. Neither promise happiness. But one is real. Every minute I spend on my stories is one less minute I spend in the real world with real people.
I think there was one sentence which actually got me stuck for ten minutes last night. The solution to my problem is obvious. Give up or do it more. The more you write and edit the easier it becomes.
Giving up isn’t an option. The other thing that happens to me when I don’t write is I become a unsufferable crabapple. My six-year-old son said to me yesterday that even when things are tough he doesn’t give up. Even though I knew that wasn’t true in his case I praised him for the sentiment. The internal struggle is the hardest thing about this gig and in most other endeavors in life.
Happy Friday and Write On!
3 thoughts on “Principles of Publishing or Write On and Drink Hot Chocolate”
You get a like for the video if nothing else. That was intense, awesome, and completely random for me. And yes, bits of it most certainly were on the Matrix, but I don’t know if it was on the first one. Pretty sure it was the second. And yes, whether I’m right or not, I love those movies that much that I at least think I know which movies have what soundtracks.
They are great movies and I’m now likely to go ahead and watch them just cause. Thanks Nicolette.
Thanks Nathan! My mind has a soundtrack, what can I say? 🙂
That’s a good thing…besides if it wasn’t for soundtracks I wouldn’t know anything about music.